Monday, June 4, 2007
212.4
4 ounces is better than nothing. i had hoped for more....a return to the 211 in two days, but alas it will take a lot longer than that and I am out of time. I think the new stuff won't be here until next week, so I better get comfortable with the failed results. Still, its ok. I think I will start at a better number next week, so when i do six weeks, i can lose 30 pounds (maybe) and make some kind of goal. I don't know. My shit is all thrown off. I can't forgive myself or DD
Sunday, June 3, 2007
212.8
Drop. Why?
Ate four apples and one grapefruit yesterday. Its the six apples elixir recommended by KT. I figured for what I did, i couldn't just go back to the regular diet. i had to empty out so that the HCG could effectively "eat away" at whatever fat tit saw fit to destroy. I understand its mechanism now. The logic is good.
Today? Work, as usual. I don't liek watching Stella because she is needy and I don't like needy.
Nothing to say.
Headache.
Fear over the next week.
Two shots left. One for tomorrow and one for Tuesday.
Wednsday, Thursday, and maybe Friday, I'm on my own.
I am not happy at all.
Ate four apples and one grapefruit yesterday. Its the six apples elixir recommended by KT. I figured for what I did, i couldn't just go back to the regular diet. i had to empty out so that the HCG could effectively "eat away" at whatever fat tit saw fit to destroy. I understand its mechanism now. The logic is good.
Today? Work, as usual. I don't liek watching Stella because she is needy and I don't like needy.
Nothing to say.
Headache.
Fear over the next week.
Two shots left. One for tomorrow and one for Tuesday.
Wednsday, Thursday, and maybe Friday, I'm on my own.
I am not happy at all.
Saturday, June 2, 2007
216.4
Gained five punds in one night. Why?
Rage!
That fucken package is not even in the US yet, so I have no idea when or if i will ever see it; Everything was futile if I have to be off the shit for over a week; all that money and effort gone because drugdelivery is a bunch of fucked up freaks who can not tell you that they are out of stock in somethign and may not be able to ship it for a week, meaning you may not see the thing you ordered for a fucken month! So angry because i could have spent a lot less on all this shit.
Everyone says hcg mail is overpriced, but what i spent in shipping on two different places cost me more than what I would have spent on hcgmail. i would have gotten material so that i did not have to reorder shit; and maybe it would have made more sense...i don't know if i had committed to them, at least i wouldn't be going through this.
whatever; i am back on, and a little glad because i think i needed the fat for my hcg shot to work on this week. that way there isn't more of me going, just the little extra fat to give me some time...a little space. i don't know i probably lost two weeks instead of one, but i gained a month of mental sanity. so I'm good. plus i'm not hungry like i've been. its been retty bad. I totally underdosed myself, so i needed the fat...for sure. especially since i have to do a couple of days with it becuase of the postal service. i'm still angry but i am through with the sabbotage.
plus lali set me off; you can not rely on people who have been disappointed with life to be supportaiove of you in your life; especially when they think when they are looking at you you are just a reflection.
whew1 i'm kind of ok now.
Rage!
That fucken package is not even in the US yet, so I have no idea when or if i will ever see it; Everything was futile if I have to be off the shit for over a week; all that money and effort gone because drugdelivery is a bunch of fucked up freaks who can not tell you that they are out of stock in somethign and may not be able to ship it for a week, meaning you may not see the thing you ordered for a fucken month! So angry because i could have spent a lot less on all this shit.
Everyone says hcg mail is overpriced, but what i spent in shipping on two different places cost me more than what I would have spent on hcgmail. i would have gotten material so that i did not have to reorder shit; and maybe it would have made more sense...i don't know if i had committed to them, at least i wouldn't be going through this.
whatever; i am back on, and a little glad because i think i needed the fat for my hcg shot to work on this week. that way there isn't more of me going, just the little extra fat to give me some time...a little space. i don't know i probably lost two weeks instead of one, but i gained a month of mental sanity. so I'm good. plus i'm not hungry like i've been. its been retty bad. I totally underdosed myself, so i needed the fat...for sure. especially since i have to do a couple of days with it becuase of the postal service. i'm still angry but i am through with the sabbotage.
plus lali set me off; you can not rely on people who have been disappointed with life to be supportaiove of you in your life; especially when they think when they are looking at you you are just a reflection.
whew1 i'm kind of ok now.
Friday, June 1, 2007
211.4
Crisis...
I'm starving because I underdosed...
DD has not gotten my new shipment into the US yet.
I have to take the shots at the measly 160 I layed out because I was unsure.
I am likely to cheat, but hat would undermine all the work I've done these past ten days.
I am hating all of this... alot! I need 200ccs every morning. Now!
I'm starving because I underdosed...
DD has not gotten my new shipment into the US yet.
I have to take the shots at the measly 160 I layed out because I was unsure.
I am likely to cheat, but hat would undermine all the work I've done these past ten days.
I am hating all of this... alot! I need 200ccs every morning. Now!
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